Valuation

life is not always sad for me

it is just the reality that harsh

make me taken aback by

how I treated myself all this time

people will more or less 

depend on the other people 

to value them

either they are enough or not

because humans can't live alone

one must accompanied by another 

to keep living

even our existence comes 

after the connection of two people

that show that 

one must choose 

who deserves to value you

you are unlimited

but with the limited knowledge and love

you can be valuable 

to other people too

one of them are the parents

the one who values us

since we are born

our parents value us enough

to know that 

we are worth it

worth for them 

to hold them back 

from giving us up

when we are baby

worth for them 

to keep on living this life

worth for them 

to go through many setbacks and challenges

the child is the one 

that is created 

based on part of 

the parent's bodies

making the parents feel 

like they owned us 

a better life 

than them

they just forgot 

that life 

isn't anything 

more or less 

than a cycle 

some parents 

giving their all 

to us 

expecting that

in the future 

they can depend 

their life on us 

just because 

you become 

the parents 

suddenly 

you lost your own life 

blame it on the child 

and 

you also feel the guilt 

as the child 

is yours 

to begin with 

sincerely 

you are the adult 

the one who can thinks

the one who can try

the one who can fail 

the one who can do

why putting the blame

to others then?

either we like or not

we are 

the indirect 

reflection of our parents 

are they doing enough?

are they caring enough?

are they strict enough?

although they are enough

other people just like 

to find weakness 

at the parents 

just because

other people 

thinks

they know better 

 

fast forward 

to the future

the efforts 

of the parents 

are shown

when you are an adult

how you treat them

how you talk to them 

how many days you visit them

how many times you call them

is it just once at a time 

or consistently doing it 

sometimes the parents 

do not realize these facts 

not until you curse them out yourself

in front of others

just to show that you are right

while the result 

does not matter much to them

you on the other part

will not realize these facts

until they passed away

I am grateful 

my religion taught me 

to try my best 

to be good 

to my parents

although they are wrong

although they don't know 

although they are not perfect

although they hurt me with their words

just try 

to be good

to them 

just listen to their advice

and 

do nothing about it

if it cross the extreme lines

of what my religion has drawn

or 

try to communicate 

with them 

about the life choices 

since 

the parents know 

their child 

and 

we probably 

kinda know ourselves 

too