Let it go

 her dream

was to be happy

in any ways possible

when I ask

she never put herself first

always

her family,

my grandmother, my grandfather

her siblings,

then come his husband

after all

she also have her own dream

but she always said it last

at the end of her sentence

in slow voices

whisper slowly

what actually that she want

growing 3 kids 

sometimes alone

in overseas

she try not to complain

try her best not to cry

as she find it useless

as nobody never notice her hard work

being an adult

I find it is 

sad

when the person 

I love the most

having to go through 

things like that

but she had to

and she deserve the world

and all the love 

happy coming birthday, mama!

I miss you 

and 

I love you so much

in this life and 

hereafter too <3