The point

I realize the point 

of my sister 

now

that I should have been

thinking about me more

than other people

growing up 

I always follow 

the talk of others

the goodness of others

until to this day

when people ask me what 

I really like about me

I do not have quite anything 

to say

some people called it's 

kind humble 

where 

they think if you said it outloud

they gonna think that you are boasting 

but for me 

it's bad 

because what if 

I really do not have 

anything 

that I like about myself 

doesn't that a bit confusing ? 

growing up

my parents always told me things like

don't be like this

be like that

don't do this

do that 

everytime I'm asking why

they always told me 

because it is good that way

being tolerance to others

listen to others

helping others

the main subject will 

always be "others"

instead of me

I end up 

put "others"

before me 

and put myself last 

although I'm okay 

doing that to my beloved ones

but I can't stop myself 

to do that to others too

and inevitably making other people

seems like they are the bad one 

just because 

I have nothing to say about me 

it's hard

to mention about myself

without having the topic about others

a lot of people 

that want me to change

they can't force me 

to talk about myself 

I don't know

maybe I learn to like myself 

a little more

and think about "others"

a little less 

turns out

I'm just young

that's probably why