I used to be young

Imagination is fine

till we turn it into delusion

treat it just like the reality

I am once

an overthinker

an imaginational

an oversensitive 

girl

my life 

has a focal 

point of others

their reality

are being put 

into mine 

other people emotion

other people burden

other people lifestyle 

other people expectation

that's probably why

I grew up 

experiencing being a 

people pleaser 

overthinker

overemotional 

kid to teenager

I'm so lost

when people told me 

to live my own life

with my own way

to be more selfish

on my decision

I just don't know how

now I know

that time I was still 

a kid

a teenager

talking like an adult 

but know nothing about the real world 

"the harsh reality"

is actually just

the tiredness effect

the endless roles dilemma

the guilty feeling that lingers

the unintentionally harsh words and actions

the compartmentalization of love 

I'm still grateful to myself

she's quite harsh on herself

in the past resulted in her 

being more 

more independent 

more stern 

more knowledgeable 

more aware 

in her life

I wish

the future me all the best

in re-learning things 

that she thought 

"the best for myself"

now may not be applicable anymore 

 

the past me 

you've done a good job

despite

all the pain 

all the sadness

all the happiness

all of that 

are such 

a blessing in disguise