the choice

if in your life 

you can differentiate 

your own self 

and other's 

clearly separate

which one is the substance 

which one is the personal reflection - thoughts, opinion, comment 

you will get excited 

to talk about the substance more 

than the personal reflection 

if in your life 

you try a little by little approach 

of making the transition 

of taking care of yourself 

from your parents care 

to 

your own way of taking care of yourself 

the result is  

there will be a point of time in your life where 

you come to realization - 

life is consist of 

your interest - which most of them represent the present and the future

and 

your past - which most of them represent the action you made

(either by other people prompt you to 

or you just want to do it 

anyway 

regardless what your parents said) 

come to the most important part of the things 

is that 

in this life 

you will be end up alone 

anyway

so make the efforts and choice 

in the present 

kinda planned out the future 

try to write it down 

in a place only you know 

or put the meaning in the things 

if you want 

to have the physical 

and 

emotionally clear result - do write whatever

think whatever

do observation 

listening

reading 

for things that interest you

for the last resort 

for not having any clear result / conclusion - let the things go 

but keep the question 

in the background of yourself 

at least you have something

that gonna keep you engaged

with the present - whenever you are not 

in the present now

as sometimes our curiosity go beyond

certain things - relax and it's really okay

Allah states human do have desire

that go beyond limits of themselves 

and that's alright 

just try to keep doing this - do write whatever

think whatever

do observation 

listening 

reading for things that interest you

let you

be you

maybe if you want 

to pass on the substance 

to other generation - younger preferably 

you can 

keep it in a journal 

preferably just passed the substance - not your past

as someone will quote your name

in the future 

you will never really know why 

for what reason 

for what intention they are doing that 

it's not really comfortable 

knowing that people

using the confidential info - your past self 

for a reason attached

to a substance

you also have the right to choose

to bring along the substance

with you alone in the afterworld 

as long as

you keep the experiment 

the analysis

the specific details of your past 

within yourself 

although it involved other people 

keep it down

lower the standard a bit 

if you do not have the capacity to do it 

remember 

you have the choice

of letting the "planned future" go 

of shift them

into tomorrow 

at the end of the day 

you only live

as yourself 

it is only once 

so try to do good

be good 

remember there is Allah

and

the hereafter the world 

anyway ~