Is it even an accident?

I'm torn

I want to be in other lecturer class

but 

I accidentally choose 

the wrong one

is it even an accident ?

I'm trying hard to trust

but it just not 

getting to me

should I 

or should I not ?

that question 

repeated in my mind

again and again

it's hard

this semester 

can I survive through it?

p.s. I do survive through it :)